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CantWait |
Posted: Jan 2 2009, 02:21 PM
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Diamond Member Group: Members Posts: 20,387 Member No.: 28 Joined: 1-March 03 |
I'm sorry if those that feel they are paticularily close to God are offended.
It is once again that my faith has been hardened. It is during times like these when I wonder if there is a God, or a greater good. I lend my faith into hands I can’t see and hope that the choices made for me are for the best. I pray to Him to do as He sees fit, that no matter what He decides I know He has His reasons, and that whatever He chooses for me, it is because He knows I can handle it with grace. I held in me a new life, a tiny life no bigger than a speck of rice, but one that I ultimately cherished all the same. I immediately nourished my body and held shelter, for that little life’s dependence on me was apparent. My little life was my hope, and my dream. I was to carry that little miracle until it bloomed, able to stand life on its own outside of me. It was seen fit that now was not the time and slowly and with much torment you fled from me. You were merely in sight a speck of rice, no life of your own yet, nothing to distinguish you, barely even there with so much time still to grow. I asked Him, if it was not to be, why not make it quick, why must it be drawn out? How could He be so cruel? Was He once again testing my faith, or lack thereof? How could He create such a miracle, a life and so cruelly take it away? Answers to these questions I’ll without doubt never have, and so I say goodbye to you, and hold you up, to the heavens to be with those that have also made their way. You’re with the heroes now, may they hold you in their gentle arms until I can hold you in mine. My little angel. Thank you for letting me share. -------------------- |
boyohboyohboy |
Posted: Jan 2 2009, 03:25 PM
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Platinum Member Group: Members Posts: 5,352 Member No.: 3,466 Joined: 22-March 06 |
Marie, I am so sorry for your loss. I must have missed your last post.
You are in my thoughts and prayers. I hope you are able to regain your faith and find peace. -------------------- Stacy, wife to Peter, mom to Caleb, Jakob, and Andrew
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redchief |
Posted: Jan 2 2009, 07:24 PM
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Platinum Member Group: Moderators Posts: 8,629 Member No.: 800 Joined: 5-October 04 |
What you have written is beautiful. I'm deeply sorry for the pain an loss you're feeling, Marie.
-------------------- Ed is husband to Lisa (since 1983) Dad to Ricky, John, Erin and Kaitlin The Administrators of the Parenting Club take trolls and violators of the Terms of Service Agreement seriously. Please report any suspicions to the Moderators. Report a post using the "report" button in the upper right corner of the offending post. |
Jackie012007 |
Posted: Jan 2 2009, 07:35 PM
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Gold Member Group: Members Posts: 1,273 Member No.: 4,017 Joined: 22-June 06 |
exactly how I'm feeling right now, Marie.
-------------------- Jackie - mama to Carly Evelyn (01-05-07) and Bride-to-Be (02-28-09)
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