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mummy2girls |
Posted: Apr 19 2007, 07:34 PM
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Thinking of you Spencer! Group: Members Posts: 12,708 Member No.: 156 Joined: 4-May 03 |
Well i just feel i need to talk before i burst! I was so hopeing to talk to Marcus tonight as I really needed to hear his voice because what he says and the sound of his voice makes me feel better all the time. BUT his sister called me and told me that he has laryngitis so he isnt able to talk, I knew he was getting sick but bad timing to lose your voice! Anyways...
You know I was really nervous on how the sleep over at the stollery would be like. Because i was scared about my reaction. I was able to handle the initial getting off the elevator onto that floor but i was still scared!Sleeping there was rough because i just could not get a good nights sleep! I kept flashing back to Jordan and everything. I even tried leaving the room and walking the halls on a different floor to see if that would help but it just made me think about my past more so i just went back to my room in hopes i would fall asleep! i did but of course a couple hours later im at square one again! the blow was when i went to wake Jenna up this morning... She started to stretch and i swear to god that she looked exactly like Jordan. it was an eeire feeling and a bad one. And to top it off I decided to listen to the radio on my walkman while trying to fall alseep last night( is that what its still called...LOL) and im not lieing when im saying this... the next song started to play and it was the dance by garth brooks. That is the song i played at Jordans funeral. Then the dj was talking after the song and then introduced the next artist and it was trisha yearwood and the song... How do i live. K guys when Jordan was in the PICU in a coma the doctors told me that one of 3 things will happen and to pretty much prepare myself, he will wake up from the coma and be the normal baby he was, or he will wake up and be severly brain damaged and have to pretty much be in a home or he will never wake up. I ran out of that room into the quiet parents room and switched on teh radio and that song played. So i shut the radio off and thought is this a cruel joke that God was playing on me. Because you know i was starting to think it was! Or was he was preparing me for entering the Stollery on teh dates Jordan was there. So i sat here and bawled like you wouldnt believe. I was so upset i couldnt talk to marcus and then Aron called to see how jennas sleep study was. i told him it went good for her but me it was hard to be there again. and his dumb butt remark was .. well shelly it isnt suppose to be a good experience for you just jenna. Remeber Jenna is more important than how you feel! OK i was ready to jump through that phone and strangle but instead i hung up! so if you have gine this far i thank you if not i understand! I know i do vent alot aboput Jordan but this year being a part of it in some way with jenna is bring the memories back full force! Im sorry guys! -------------------- |
A&A'smommy |
Posted: Apr 19 2007, 07:40 PM
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Praying For Spencer Group: Moderators Posts: 29,769 Member No.: 243 Joined: 11-August 03 |
I'm so sorry Shelly that something that NO parent should ever have to endure, it breaks my heart that you are going through all of this.. I wish I could say something comforting... I just want you to know that I'm here for you and I'm sending tons and TONS of P&PT'S for you and Jenna..
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Hillbilly Housewife |
Posted: Apr 20 2007, 03:30 AM
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Ruby Member Group: Moderators Posts: 13,589 Member No.: 89 Joined: 5-April 03 |
I'm so sorry Shelly. It can't be easy for you.
Vent away, we're here for you. BTW - I looked at Jordan's website... absolutely sweet! -------------------- The richest people don't have the best of everything, they make the best of everything.
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kit_kats_mom |
Posted: Apr 20 2007, 03:51 AM
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Cary the Lemur Group: Members Posts: 8,080 Member No.: 135 Joined: 15-April 03 |
Oh Shelly, I'm sorry you are having a rough time. Try to look for the good in all of it. Maybe all of the coincidences are Jordan letting you know he's there to watch over his baby sister and protect her, instead of God trying to prepare you. Try to find your peace dear.
-------------------- Cary
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amymom |
Posted: Apr 20 2007, 04:56 AM
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The kids!! Group: Members Posts: 5,710 Member No.: 1,308 Joined: 30-January 05 |
I agree with Cary about the coincidences. Take care. Lots of prayers to you.
And Shelly, vent away, I am thankful that I can help a little by just listening. And Thankful when you all are her for me too! -------------------- Anne Marie Mom to Billy & Mary Beth Wife to Lee |
Mommy2BAK |
Posted: Apr 20 2007, 05:25 AM
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Diamond Member Group: Moderators Posts: 4,928 Member No.: 843 Joined: 20-October 04 |
Oh Shelly, I wish I could just come this this screen and give you the hugs that you need. We are always here to listen anytime you need to talk about Jordan or anything for that matter! I agree with what Cary said, perhaps Jordan is letting you feel his presents and know that it will all be alright.
-------------------- ~TAMARA~
Blessed mother to Blakely (7/12/04), Ayden (9/21/07), Addison and Avery (7/2/08) |
lisar |
Posted: Apr 20 2007, 05:36 AM
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Yes it is I.... Group: Members Posts: 11,727 Member No.: 1,760 Joined: 20-April 05 |
Oh Shelly I am so sorry. I couldnt even begin to imagine how you feel or even how you deal with it all. Just remeber that Jordan is now Jenna's guardian angel watching over her.
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mummy2girls |
Posted: Apr 20 2007, 05:39 AM
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Thinking of you Spencer! Group: Members Posts: 12,708 Member No.: 156 Joined: 4-May 03 |
Thanks guys! i guess im in a real bad funk! I need to be in Marcus's arms right now. but that may not happen because he is in bed really sick right now.
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lisar |
Posted: Apr 20 2007, 05:42 AM
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Yes it is I.... Group: Members Posts: 11,727 Member No.: 1,760 Joined: 20-April 05 |
I hope he feels better soon and can come and comfort you. |
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~Roo'sMama~ |
Posted: Apr 20 2007, 05:58 AM
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My two cuties :) Group: Members Posts: 7,394 Member No.: 788 Joined: 29-September 04 |
I'm sorry Shelly!
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Kirstenmumof3 |
Posted: Apr 20 2007, 09:48 AM
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Calm and Tranquil! Group: Moderators Posts: 9,565 Member No.: 189 Joined: 23-May 03 |
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hopefulmomtobe |
Posted: Apr 20 2007, 10:52 AM
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Silver Member Group: Validating Posts: 818 Member No.: 5,175 Joined: 7-September 06 |
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