I can't take it anymore!

[MyBabeMaddie]

I am so tired of being overweight! I am ready to stop eating, seriously the only thing keeping me from not eating is that I have to nurse Madison. How selfish am I? I want to stop BF just so I can stop eating. I struggled with ED in high school and I'm feeling a relapse.

[CantWait]

No advice sweetie, besides I think it's time to go to your family physician. I know I had expected to lose more weight when nursing, and instead I ended up gaining. It makes it that much more difficult when you don't know what's coming at you. It's also quite early still, you only gave birth a month ago. Is this how you feel, or did SO bring it up?

[MyBabeMaddie]

He doesn't bring it up but he doens't need to, the looks I get are enough said. Its been 7 weeks and i thought I'd at least be fitting in my SWEATPANTS by now. I know I need to see someone but its such a hassle (sp?) I guess I could take Madison with me but it would be nice to find a babysitter.


I need to go for walks and eat right and drink a lot of water but its just so much easier to not eat at all. What gets me the most is I am tired of putting on this happy act around my family. I'm so afraid if they knew I might have PPD they would be like "Yep told ya so, you shouldn't have had a baby " I'm trying to put on this fake exterior that i'm perfectly happy and my relationship with DB is better than ever.

[gr33n3y3z]

Please do talk to someone

[CantWait]

Is Madison a good baby? I can understand not taking her if she would scream the whole time, but you really need to think of yourself. Not eating or drinking, or getting out for a simple walk is a serious sign that you need some help. Take it from me, I spent 2 and a half very unhappy years hiden away in my house before I got help.

Even the most ready parent has still suffered from PPD. It has nothing to do with whether or not one is ready to be a mom.

I'd like to have a serious talk with you DB with my fist, he should be ashamed of himself.

[A&A'smommy]

I know how you feel I was a size 3 when I got pregnant and a 14 after I had her it was terrible. You should definitly talk to someone!!!

[mckayleesmom]

Honey....7 weeks is not a long time to lose anything...especially when you put it on over a 9 month period. You are being way to hard on yourself.

[Mommy2Isabella]

I know EXACTLY how you feel!!! When I got PG I was a size 0 and now Im a size 6. I have NEVER had a belly in my life and now I do. DH doesn't say anything but I have a feeling that I know he thinks it. Like many other women on here said you should talk to someone. I have my 6 week on Thursday and I am going to talk to them about maybe getting some medication ... I am not sure though.

I am sorry you feel you have to hide it from your family. That is never easy, in my opinion I think it makes it worse. Because then you are depressed even more because you feel that there isn't anyone you can talk to about it.

I am always here if you need someone to talk to. I wrote you back from your PM. Which THANK YOU. It is nice to know that I am not the only one !!!

Jess

[luvmykids]

I felt the same way, I was in tears because I held off trying to get in my old clothes for about 6 weeks just because I was SURE they would fit by then. When they didn't, I fell apart. Give yourself a break, your body has endured a lot and you will get the weight off!

[Hillbilly Housewife]

Yep...talk to someone. I weighed 124 pounds when I got pregnant the first time.. and my weight went up to 198 with my first baby. I dropped down to 165 after the hospital...then got pregnant with my second baby, my weight went up to 202 pounds. I dropped down to 165 again...then I got pregnant with my 3rd baby, and my weight went up to 219 (I think...maybe it was 217) and now I'm playing between 185 and 195. It sucks.

But keep in mind that you took 9 months to put the weight on, take at least 9 months to take the weight off. You'll get there. Give it time...and enjoy your baby while she is little...it goes by wayyy too fast.

[holley79]

Well let me tell you. I had ED when I was in HS also. I haven't had one since I have been BFing. If you are concerned about weight join weight watchers. You can do that and BF.

[PrairieMom]

Jess, you are a size 6?! Okay. I carried my PG weight in my butt for some reason, and now I am a 12. I was about a 7-ish before. I have about 20 pounds to loose before I am at my pre-prego weight, which is still at the higher end of my ideal body weight.

It took me 10 months to loose the 70 pounds I gained when I was prego with Benjamin, It takes time.

[mysweetpeasWil&Wes]

Well I reccomend talking with someone. An ED doesn't always have to do with a weight issue. Sounds like you're suffering with a lot more, so I think it's wise to talk to someone about it. I've learned that an ED has a lot to do with control. And often the feeling of losing that control will put an ED into overdrive. So with just having a baby, issues with your SO, possible PPD, etc...it's no wonder you feel that you may relapse. Take the baby with you. She will be fine. Go during naptime. I know it's easy to forget about yourself when you first become a mother, but just remember, the baby needs a happy and healthy mom to be happy and healthy herself. Take care of yourself, please.

[holley79]

You know it might do you well to go for a walk when DB is home or whatever. Then when wittle one is old enough start taking her for walks with you. Getting fresh air may help.