Depression

sence i had my D&C , i've been so misserable i cry all the time , i dont want to get out of bed ,i have night mares wake up crying , i've been hidding from my friends , i hate even going food shopping , well my BF took me to see a pysciatrist (spelling) today..he said i'm going threw PTS , and depression..so hopefuly the meds they gave me will help , i just feel so alone , but i know i'm not , its hard to see pregnant women and read some of the pregancy stories on this board. please girls dont take that the wrong way, in a way i'm so jelous but happy at thte same time for you girls...i just didnt realize this would happen to me nor would it affect me so bad, i want to get better so i can enjoy my children again its even hard to look at them ..i'm sorry i just had to let it out again , but i'm sure i will be feeling better soon , thanks for listening to me again

I'm sure you will be feeling better soon. Just remember that you aren't broken (don't mean to sound harsh ) and you can do this again. It's not uncommon for you to be depressed about this. Take some time to be depressed. Any one with a heart would be feeling like you are now. This is probably a hard time for your children also. They have to see Mommy so sad. Use this time to give them extra hugs and hopefully you feel better soon.

I can't imagine what this kind of loss feels like, all I can tell you is we're here for you

(((((Big Hugs)))) We are all hear for you and don't feel guilty about feeling jealous. I think that is completely normal. I had a chemical pregnancy right before I got pregnant and I had those emotions too. Many prayers...

I know how you feel. The only thing that got me through was the knowledge that God was helping me through it. I don't know how I could have survived otherwise.

I don't have any wonderful words of wisdom. All I can say is don't shut the other children out. They need love and hugs just as you do right now. I know you love them to pieces, and I do know you're hurting so bad right now. They may be reminding you of your loss, but don't forget that those two are proof of your gain

Yes - I totally agree! To be honest with you, seeing Sam and Abby have been the ONLY thing getting me through my loss. PM if you want to talk - we went through our losses like a week apart or something! I'm here if you want to chat - this is my third loss and it NEVER gets any easier, although focusing on my kids really helped this time. With my first two losses, I didnt have any kids yet.

Hopefully the meds will start kicking in and will help.

Edited to add: Also, this time I'm totally making sure I'm busy -- I've started a bunch of projects to keep my mind off of feeling sad. Night time is the hardest time for me,,,because its quite and everyone is asleep.

This post has been edited by Sam & Abby's Mom on Apr 21 2008, 08:19 PM

Yes - I totally agree! To be honest with you, seeing Sam and Abby have been the ONLY thing getting me through my loss. PM if you want to talk - we went through our losses like a week apart or something! I'm here if you want to chat - this is my third loss and it NEVER gets any easier, although focusing on my kids really helped this time. With my first two losses, I didnt have any kids yet.

Hopefully the meds will start kicking in and will help.

Edited to add: Also, this time I'm totally making sure I'm busy -- I've started a bunch of projects to keep my mind off of feeling sad. Night time is the hardest time for me,,,because its quite and everyone is asleep.

thanks..i will deffinetly do something to help keep my mind off of it..i do feel bad about my 2 boys , i dont wanna shut them out i'm trying and it helps to know that all you ladies understand

You went through a terrible loss, there is no need to appologize for the way you are feeling! I'm sorry you are feeling this way and I wish I could take your pain away! Let yourself grieve and cry and scream if you have too. Take good care of yourself and remember we are always here for you! You're in my thoughts and prayers!

I'm sorry.

You have a lot going on right now, you are mourning a loss and your hormones are probably all out of wack still. We're here if you need to talk or just vent.

(((HUGS))) Im so sorry you have to endure that. losing a child at any age or any situation is hard. It will be hard to be honest the first few months to first year but as the days, months and years go by you will get better. The pain will still be there you just will know how to handle the pain. You will get through this!!!!!!