The past couple weeks I have had a feeling that the baby we lost was a girl. I will never know for sure but every time I think of the baby I think of it as a "her", and I always picture a little blond haired girl. It may be just because I would really like a girl, but when I was pg I didn't have a preference for what this baby would be - I wanted a boy just as much as I wanted a girl. I guess I'll know for sure when I get to Heaven someday but until then I think I'll always think of her as my little girl.
It has been a little hard lately ~ we've been painting the upstairs bedrooms, but we decided to leave the nursery walls unpainted so that we can paint it either blue or pink for the next baby when the time comes... it was my idea to leave it that way but it hurts to see the bare walls in there. I should have been 15 weeks by now and so close to finding out what it was and getting the nursery ready. |