I didnt think it would be so hard ya know! , i just keep replaying the US image in my head over and over again 20 min felt like 6hrs of torcher, i keept praying the whole time asking god to please let this tech be wrong , but when the doc came in and did it also , ugh! it just hit me  , they asked if i wanted the pic for keep sakes to have some memory , but i couldnt i just couldnt take the pic , maybe it was wrong for me to not take it i dunno , they said my due date would have been pushed back to 20th due to the measurement ,when the doc told me what he wanted to do i just couldnt handle it i left ,i ran out to my car, my BF had to chase me down and make me rashionalize everything, its just not fair ,i did everyhting i was sappose to do why does this happen ? i hear stories of these things happening but i never thought it could happen to me , i just didnt think it would be so hard , i felt so attached already ..i'm so sorry for going on and on i just dont understand |
